I have had up to like three different abuses, and I am just 20. Two of which were from my age mates, and the other one which happens to be the first from a lady who is older (a distant relative, to be precise). I was just 5 then, and I remembered it all started with the common “daddy and mummy play”, it was all fun until she made me realize couples the things needs to have, and to do that, there is a process. She did all sort of things, and there was even penetration.

How long has this sexual abuse / behaviour occurred/been occurring?

This happened for months before I and my mom left the place, because I lost my dad at a very early stage.

Have you ever told anyone or received help?

No I haven’t told anyone

Who did you tell or what type of help did you receive?

Nobody. I feel no could really understand. No they never will.

Have you noticed any physical or medical changes with your body as a result of the sexual abuse?

Growing up I hated anything that has to do with sex. Then all of a sudden when I clocked 14, I started fantasizing about having and I got addicted to pornography and masturbation which I have tried to stop several times.

What has been the emotional or psychological effects you’ve experienced as a result of the sexual abuse?

I am always depressed and I regret masturbating every time I do it.

Do you wish to further speak with mental health professionals about this?

Yes