NOW IN MY 50S, I HAVE ERECTILE PROBLEMS – Anonymous 002
I had half my penile skin amputated as an infant. Sadly, this abuse is extremely common and institutionalized in the US. I have no recourse to justice. It has cause me great suffering throughout life, the failure of two marriages, and my children raised in broken homes. I don’t even want another relationship due to my sexual dysfunctions caused by my being raped as a new-born infant.
How long has this sexual abuse / behaviour occurred/been occurring?
My entire life
Have you ever told anyone or received help?
Yes. 99% don’t care. I had many counsellors invalidate me immediately. I have found one who listens, but he is busy. I have lost friends and family for speaking out. My siblings are divided. This has torn my family structures apart.
Who did you tell or what type of help did you receive?
No attorney will touch my case. I am told they could be disciplined by the court. Doctors, councillors, urologist don’t care, and invalidate me.
Have you noticed any physical or medical changes with your body as a result of the sexual abuse?
Yes. I have always struggled to climax. Sex was insufficient. I would stop and masturbate to finish. I get no enjoyment from BJs. Now in my 50s, I have erectile problems, and have lost almost all sensation in my penis. I am sexually frustrated but lack the ability to find relief.
What has been the emotional or psychological effects you’ve experienced as a result of the sexual abuse?
I have been depressed and suicidal on many occasions, and still am. I have battled with alcoholism and other addictions. I have struggled my whole life with drugs/toys/promiscuity in any attempt at sexual satisfaction that is beyond my reach.
Do you wish to further speak with mental health professionals about this?