“At A Point, I Became The One Craving It” — Anonymous 007
Dear Survivor, we are sorry you had to go through all you went through during the abuse. We appreciate how courageous you are to have decided to share your story with us. Kindly drop your story here in detail. Thank you.
I will try to summarize as much as possible, please bear with me.
In my primary school, I had a cousin that lived with us. It was just me and my younger sister staying with my grandma and some extended family. I honestly can’t even remember how it started, but I knew I tried turning her down every time she played with me.
I remember that every time she kissed me, I would spit throughout that day, I would reject her but she would force me and overpower me, she always got what she wanted. There was a day I vowed not to give in and I pretended like I was asleep, but she threatened to beat me if I didn’t respond, she would use my hands to touch her body.
This happened almost every day. She even tried it outside and in public but in a hidden way that no one but me would understand. After a long time, I gave in and I got so used to kissing and romancing her.
At a point, I became the one craving for it. I got so addicted that I desired it. Because of this, I started acting rudely to her, I no longer respected her outside and in public, after all, we were equal, Irrespective of the fact that she was older than me by about 6 years.
She reduced the way played but it was already too late, I was addicted. This happened until we grew up and separated. After many years, I finally controlled the addiction and became in charge of my urges. I am still not perfect but I am far better today, all thanks to GOD ALMIGHTY.
How old are you?
32 years old.
Have you ever told anyone or received help?
Who did you tell or what type of help did you receive?
15 years later, I shared this story with some of my friends while also encouraging them. Interestingly, I picked myself up. I am not a religious extremist but I can confidently say my personal relationship with GOD ALMIGHTY helped me.
Have you noticed any physical or medical changes in your body as a result of the sexual abuse?
What have been the emotional or psychological effects you’ve experienced as a result of the sexual abuse?
I struggled with the addiction for years.
How do you feel after sharing your story with us?
Relieved, indifferent, and happy.